Last night I won $225, finishing first in an online poker tournament. So I think I've got the game figured out, for online, anyways. You know pain training? Well, losing money when you make a mistake is pretty good for that.
So I was talking to Max about how I rarely do things half-way. I don't just play a little poker in my spare time--- I read books, watch shows, completely emerse myself in the game.
I don't just read one Hunter S. Thompson book and enjoy it. I buy every book he's ever written and read them ALL. I watch all the movies and shows about him I can find. I spend two hours reading all of the obituary things people wrote about him in Rolling Stone...
I don't watch Sealab 2021 on TV and enjoy it when it's on. I buy every DVD.
I don't just play Soul Caliber 2 when I'm bored with my friends-- I practice. For a little bit, almost every day, until I'm the MASTER. Then I can rest easily.
Whatever I do, I want to be the HEAD guy. I want to be the GURU, the GOD, the LEADER in the field. I want to know the most and be the best. I wonder if that's some sort of psychological condition, of if I'm just trying to do the best I can at the things I WANT to do.
I think it's a good thing. Or will be, when I'm a husband and father. Or a head scientist. Or a famous author. Or even in TRYING to be those things--- I'll want to be the best.
So look out, girlfriend, lab partner, publishing people... I'm coming to get you.
