You Don't Even Play Piano

... Zac The Knife... Zacharchy....... "Quote, quote.....quotes, there you go, more quotes." -Kieran.......... Deane: Anywhere that serves alcohol and food is acceptable for my admittedly low standards......... Kieran: predictably terrible......... Marie: you talk like a psyco guy on TV........ Carly: Masturbation is NOT an ice cream flavour!........ SoulMan81284: You're actually halfway intelligent... zdurisko: i certainly try to be............ firefirefire314: I need to read this manual on how to kill mockingbirds........... scorin8: no i am amazed by you, you're a walking cool ass dictionary of fun shit............ z0331: you're being worse than most girls.......... asunny2: reflect away, but don't ever think you are a bad person.......... liblibprez: you are way too adorable sometimes.......... SoulMan81284: I love how people think you're sane and I'm crazy.......... z0331: GET IN THE KITCHEN AND MAKE THE DAMN GAME zdurisko: :-( z0331: yeah...u would be all...frowny emoticon at that.......... celia5555555555: sorry I was making myself a burito........... fizixdaddyo: a free man.......... Hiro Yagyu: military strategy rocks.......... scorin8: I find that sometimes I think something is a joke, yet I have no idea cause I don't get it.......... estralitaria: we, thankfully, have gotten over that and are secure in our pretentions.......... SoulMan81284: Even your heathen heart would have been warmed.......... zdurisko: where would i be without you, jill? ohyahno: i dont know zac :-)........... Hiro Yagyu: france, hahahhaha Hiro Yagyu: suckeres.......... celia5555555555: you're a cute little puppy :-)........... XMetalHead715X: even tittier (if thats a word)........... estralitaria: well i guess not zdurisko: not a deal? estralitaria:no, i mean yes..........

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"'The Downward Spiral of my Life' By Zac." -Connor.

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Sometimes there are things in life that you don't understand. Like, you don't really know why they're happening, but they happen anyways.

I had one of those tonight. Turned my world pretty much on its side. I thought that my life was turning around. I thought that I was really about to come into my own and emerge this new, better me, as I burst through this sticky matrix of life. I was doing my work, being happy, a little stressed, but very happy. What the hell?

But, it's not Dawn's fault she's not ready for a relationship. I can't blame her. I'm just so very disappointed with the whole thing. I really like her, and I really thought we could make something nice. Yes, take it slow, and yes, be very very wary of entering into this relationship... but to still walk down that path. Anyways, she's not ready.

I'm feeling really rejected and really disappointed and just really.... blah. I shouldn't have had my hopes up so high, but it's rare for a guy in my position to get beautiful, funny, smart, happy, FUN people who make my days brighter for just being in them, who come up TO ME and say "hey, I really really really like you." God, I'm just so pathetic. I'm such that loser who gets his heart set on this girl out of his league and she doesn't really wanna be with him and he's all crushed about it when she says no. But it's not FAIR. She said she liked me! She says she still does! GAHHHH!!!H! It just makes me so mad that she can still like me AND not want to be with me! That doesn't seem like something people should be allowed to do. It's not fair.

I really don't blame her. I really don't. I not mad at her either, she's just being honest and telling me her feelings and there's nothing I can do but react. Like I said, I'm just really disappointed. I honestly thought it was gonna be something nice and wonderful. Stupid stupid stupid Zac.

I really don't feel like doing anything but getting fucked up right now... so...
OPERATION: STAYING MY ASS SOBER --------- FAILED.

BOTTLES OF WINE: 1
BONG RIPS: 3

posted by Zac "Ille Falx" @ 3/01/2004 10:44:00 PM

Monday, March 01, 2004