so there was this party the other night... and it went to prove a few things to me. intense drunken conversations are one of the weirder things in the world. as i'm sure seth would tell you (as he remarked " you havn't moved in an HOUR" like.. 8 times), zac and i had this long conversation at the party, sitting on the floor next to the fucking door that people kept opening to go outside to smoke. basically, we shouldn't have drunken conversations about serious things. remember that, kids. like way back in the day, the first time i partied with this crowd.. at seth's ranch that first time, with duncan and jill's convo, til last night, it's proven that it doesn't solve much. sometimes a drunk conversation can open doors that wouldn't have been opened, as alcohol losens the habitions, allows us to talk more freely, but in general, if you want to talk abt something serious, and want to remember it and maybe have it effect things in the future, i think we can agree that we should do it sober. maybe...START the convo drunk, and continue it sober. damn it i don't know. the party also proved to me that beds are precious. celie and i had this huge nice bed, and we were trying to fall asleep, amid the loud ozomatli music (which was appreciated, even if it was loud), and ben barrymore jumps up, after kicking off his tims, and lies right between us, and talks for the next hour. that might make it seem like we didn't appreciate it, when actually it was really amusing and a good way to end the night. ben is hilarious, he just talks and talks and is so friendly and just starts freestying out of nowhere (in the words of celie "that crackah can really freestyle, yo"), and basically provided entertainment for the both of us. and i guess alex, seth, jill and becca all slept on a TWIN bed... how they managed that, i do not know. i like meeting new people. however... these new people don't necessarily include the number of kids from morse. ok so we didn't really mix, and i'm prolly just being a bitch, but.. hicks. haha.. some of them were nice, but it's just kind of weird to throw these groups together and have no one mix. um it's pretty late and i'm going on like 2 hours of sleep here, so i'm going to keep the synopsis short. most of you were there so you know how it was. oh and PAUL we missed you i'm sorry that things got messed up or whatever happened. and marge, if you ever read this, thanks for having us, your room rocks.
in other news, my so called life totally makes my life. "i couldn't stop thinking about it. the like fact that people had sex. that they just...had it. they sex was this thing that people had, like a rash.. or a rotweiler. everything started to seem pornographic or something" -angela.
to put this in context...i think abt that, and sometimes i'm so mystefied/horrified at who's done what, that it just seems random.
