Chris tells me that songs are a good gateway into a friend's life. Well... I have issues with Natalie. I don't know if you guys noticed but I never really talk about her. It's for her sake, I suppose. I wouldn't mind everyone knowing, but I don't know how she'd feel. At any rate, here's a song depicting the ultimate fear of my problems with Natalie:
Between this and Strangefolk [see marquee on MY BLOG]
Barenaked Ladies - Rock Spectacle - Break Your Heart lyrics:
Words & Music by Steven Page
The bravest thing I've ever done
Was to run away and hide
But not this time, not this time
And the weakest thing I've ever done
Was to stay right by your side
Just like this time, and every time
I couldn't tell you I was happy when you were gone
So I lied and said that I missed you when we were apart.
I couldn't tell you, so I had to lead you on
But I didn't mean to break your heart.
And if I always seem distracted
Like my minds somewhere else,
That's because it's true, yes it's true
it's this stupid pride that makes me feel
Like I have to follow through
Even half-assedly, loving you
Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice?
When I guess I should have just come out and told you right from the start
Why must I always tell you all I want is this?
I guess 'cause I didn't want to break your heart
And you said;
"What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Curl up and die just because of you?
I'm not that weak, you know
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Try to make you love me as much as I love you?
how could you be so low?
You arrogant man,
What do you think that I am?
My heart will be fine
Just stop wasting my time"
And now I know that you will be okay, and that I
got what I want and that's rid of you
Good bye
And it's not cause I'll be missing you
That makes me fall apart
it's just that I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
Your heart
So there. Abby said: the problem is that you're too nice, you sacrifice your own feelings just so that others don't get hurt. According to Justin: "DONT FUCKING DO THAT!"
Seemingly nihilist, still desperately seeking Nirvana, concrete-sequential atheist, who of all people could use your help.
"What do you want... you can have it.... i'll give it to you.... its your life....you have to decide"
