I saw Chris Vey-U-X in Calc, which is good because I like him. Abby's almost got me convinced: "If you were gay, you'd like someone like Chris."
Whatever, I'm fairly secure, and so its cool. I wish I had talked with him more, this morning though. He's been going through some rough times, relationship and love wise, and I wish I could help him more. He kinda opened up to me a little last night, which I like. We might do something this weekend.
I'm so tired. Mr. Woodsum was like, "you look like hell" when i saw him this afternoon. Yeah well... I'm tired. I was reading Sam's blog about that funny feeling he was having and for the record, I get that too; its from being tired.
I kinda feel weird talking about Chris and such, though. Its like I'm invading his privacy or whatever. Dude, if you (or anyone) has a problem with anything, thats why there are comments. I feel the opposite of Sam. I want this to be a place where I can be honest, but I dont want to cause any trouble or start any rumors. (at least cause trouble). I'll leave that stuff up to Abby...
I want to be young and stupid, and I don't want people to tell me that "its just a phase". I hate that. I also hate when people tell me to go to bed. Like I don't want to, Dad!! I would love to sleep all day, but then you'd yell at me for that and I wouldn't have any work done. Whatever. Very few people understand. Its the way things are. Nobody ever understands what you're going through, because you're going through it. Everyone has problems, though, so never feel alone. It helps to talk about things too, don't ever lie to yourself and say that it only makes you feel worse, you just need a better listener.
